I am experiencing an overwhelming sense of self doubt. I honestly don’t know what to do or what to think. I am hoping you might be able to help.
I feel as though I am locked in some sealed box – as though my life has contained and restrained me, unable to break free, unable to escape, unable even to perceive of a life outside my own limited confinement.
It is as though all communication with the world has been cut off. I feel alone. I feel isolated. I feel as if there is nothing but me.
Or, perhaps, not even that.
I am beginning to doubt my own existence. Do I actually exist? Did I ever exist? Is this life or is this death? I don’t know and I think – I fear – that I might never come to know the truth.
Can one be no-one? Can I think of my non-existence if I indeed do not exist? Isolated and cut off from the rest of the world, how can I even begin to know anything, let alone anything of my self?
I doubt that I even exist. There is nothing and I am nothing – that’s how I feel. Now, though, I even begin to wonder if I feel anything at all. How much that we ‘feel’ is real and how much is, in fact, our imagination? How much ‘being’ is life and how much ‘life’ is actually a useless faith in some kind of existential delusion?
Do I exist? Am I alive? Am I dead?
I do not know and my life – if I am alive at all – is filled only with doubt and darkness.
Please, please, please help me.
(care of my owner, Erwin Schrödinger who is apparently quite famous.)